"Oh, it is not from vanity alone, it is not from feelings of vanity that Russians become Atheists and Jesuits! But from spiritual thirst, from anguish of longing for higher things, for dry firm land, for foothold on a fatherland which they never believed in because they never knew it."
~Dostoevsky
Though I wonder if it only applies to religious beliefs.
You know when we ask people, 'Oh, what is so great about being human? Why are you so proud?' and they would answer with 'humanity' and how it separates us from animals; those barbaric, primitive creatures! Well I don't understand. What is humanity? 'To be human'? Why that's the very core of our destruction, we die because we are humans, other people die because we are humans. Humanity is what will and have killed us.
And I question the Almighty God, how he could sit upon his throne as he watches the anarchic dance that his serves are beginning to lose themselves in. We like to believe in Him because it gives us comfort that someone is watching over us, willing to help when something goes bad. But he never pulls through, where is he now amidst this chaos of a world? Or is he comfortable with this sadistic view. In which case, perhaps humanity is great after all because a pinch of compassion is involved. Because at times, we have the decency to help others in crisis, we bond together with strangers in times of need. So I question humanity and God and why our parents encourage us to have so much faith in either, but what do I know? I'm just a kid.
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