It took a while, but I finally got here! It's not like I slaved at it for 1460 days or anything but because along the way I just lost interest in the picture and took a 2 year sabbatical. But recently I've found that painting, just whatever and it doesn't even have to resemble anything at all, really helps me with a lot of stuff.
But you know how daunting it is to finally finish something that you've been working on for the longest time? Because all you'd want to do is just keep working and reworking on it, maybe because it's comfortable to be doing the same thing all the time instead of starting over and work on something completely different and new. The problem is, the second you decide to rework it, you're just going to have to keep doing it until you drown in the disillusion that you're actually improving the work. Then you step back from the work and you realise that you've turned it into complete shit. It's difficult and it's scary to have to look at a blank sheet of paper again, sure it's full of possibilities and you can fill it with whatever you want but that's just it isn't it? The idea of having complete creative freedom is sort of a scary thought.
In fact, with this particular picture, I repainted more than half of what I'd done in 2009 a few months ago simply because it didn't look right. It still doesn't look quite right but that's about as close as I can get it at this point.
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